~let the stars lead my way~

* Monday, June 30, 2008 *

To my beloved ones...

To me it's a kind of pity that we cannot meet up before I leave for my camp, although I will still in Singapore and no where far, but I really hope to get together with your to gather some courage before I meet new friends, but I guess your have stuff to carry on.
So before I leave I just want leave a message to everyone of your.

To jess:
You are always so brave and shining in the eyes of mine. I can take the solution you give me when I am faced with problems, the attitude that you lead your life inspires me and I am learning from you how to have the attitude towards life. You're cool!

To Elaine:
You are wonderful. Dun feel hurt if we call u Bleaf cause sometimes you are a bit (haha) but that is what makes u unique isn't it? Dun close up yourself too much, go out and make new friends, BUT not forgetting us also. You are someone who have great will, dun give up.

To Ying Jia:
My Future air stewardess? Dun fear, no matter which path you choose to do, I will be at your back giving you support (provided it's the politically correct stuff to do, and not stunts, haha). You have a very outward bounded character which I feel its good, you get to expose to more of life. When will I get to know what is in your heart and mind?

To Shu Fang:
Don't always feel that you cannot do it, you can! Must believe in yourself, your English is not that bad, assignment done also good enough. You can make it! Don't always fierce me ah~ I small girl I scare. Lesser root beer for you if you fierce or bully me! Haha.

Stay Strong everyone! Future will not be easy, but I guess your will excel well. I actually very much hoping that we can meet up, but everyone got stuff to do which I guess I should not be so stubborn to insist on meeting up. Leaving a message here also not sure your will read or not, anyway I hope we can be more open of our feelings so I walk into your heart and understand more. But its hard, I know.

Really want to know how I fair in everyone heart but well its bad to insist on stuff too much specially when it comes to feelings and emotions.

Writing as if I will be gone, nope I will not be gone, I will still be in Singapore and bothering your in the years to come! Cheers!

JuSt Me~
12:02 AM

* Sunday, June 29, 2008 *

car can move...*DuH*

26 June, Thursday:

I had my very first driving lesson, CAR CAN MOVE! I was so scare at first cause I did not know where to assemble where to find the instructor. But everything went smoothly and I managed to get into the driver sit. He teaches me how to control the pedal. When he say ok drive straight I was like OMG am I really doing it now? So sudden I am not well prepared yet! But I drove and after that was to the main road. Gosh, everything was fine till the road in circuit was filled with more cars moving around, I have to stop at certain moments and before I move off, the car stall~ and it happens not just once but I guess up to 10 times! HAHAHA but overall was fun driving a car, so different from Daytona!

Will be off to camp tomorrow for four days, kind of feeling weird and frustrated cause I am so not sure what shirt to wear and my room is in a messy of all the camp stuff lying around! When I see the mess, I just cannot be bothered to continue packing and feel so angry *ARGH*

JuSt Me~
4:31 PM

* Wednesday, June 25, 2008 *

PI 's' & wisdom tooth 's'

Yesterday was a fun day with PI (private investigator) in disgust. Well, we had our own fun where the one who is being stalk by us had fun too I guess. I guess we are quite qualified PIs now. Hope to have more stalking coming up to excite my day!

To (you know who):

I guess the time is not there yet, but dun worry, we are still young we have time to spare. Perhaps he will sort out his feelings. I know you are grateful we are there for you. However, I felt grateful too because you are sharing bits and pieces of your life and feelings with us that made me feel I am worth being your friend. Dun worry what might be coming, we will always be there for you! We are always willing to share our ears, thoughts and shoulder.

______________________________

Today I woke up early because I have a dental appointment. I predict my doctor will nag at me because I missed my previous appointment and I did not really take good care of my teeth. However, surprise! She did not nag at me but it will be my last visit to her! After 6 years I am free from NDC! I still have to go back to have a cleaning session but I am really thankful to the doctor if not I will not have this nice and neat teeth.

I mention about my wisdom tooth that seems to be coming out at the bottom right of my gum. After looking through my past x-ray she confirm that I have 3 wisdom tooth, I saw the x-ray too, I was so shocked cause instead of the normal 4, I only had 3! There no wisdom tooth on the upper left! GONE? *hmmm* So she suggest to transfer me to a doctor who can operate on me, but I ponder so she say that when I go back for cleaning then decide to see a doctor for operation or not.

Whatever it is, I am scared, since young I am scare of dentist and I hated it! They pull my mouth and make my gums bleed. I am scare, on top of that operation on wisdom tooth require to cut the gum so it will bleed more I guess, I am scare! Hope my wisdom tooth 's' stop growing now!

JuSt Me~
10:54 PM

* Tuesday, June 10, 2008 *

Happening

Even though I am at home, but I still hardly update cause I am just pure lazy. So many things happened.

Yearly J2EYS chalet is over, well I guess it is a test for our friendship. Photos will be up when I got it.

I signed up for the NUS union camp, signed for a language programme and also made my appeal to the uni just to get into the course I want.

Other event that took placed were:
-I finally bought my crumpler bag.
-I had a great fall because I play my DS while walking, got a big bruise at my knee
-I passed my basic theory! WOOOS. (A step nearer)

I really miss my polytechnic friends now. Although I did not have a lot of friends in there, but I have a lot of classmates, everyone from every semester I miss u guys so much. I miss their lame jokes, miss their caring for one another, miss hopping in to every different class everyday just to sit down and chat. I guess school days are just so good especially a class move towards a goal and everyone make their effort.

I just cannot understand where the stress is coming from, I am having insomnia and bad dream.

I am still having bruise, it happened mostly near my knee cap, I guess I am so careless. In order not to put my life at stake, I will seek an advice of a doctor soon I guess.

I seriously need a job because I am overspending.

I am down with flu quite serious, I cannot breathe well, worst when it comes to brushing of teeth, I go no where to breathe!

-updating partly for ira...smile!

JuSt Me~
12:38 AM

* Wednesday, June 4, 2008 *

hot from the oven

must watch really new and nice~

JuSt Me~
1:16 AM