et the stars lead my way~~l

* Wednesday, September 26, 2007 *

suay

After that “lucky” orange went into my stomach, nothing good did actually happen I guess. Monday and Tuesday lesson is fine.

Today is bad. I know that the whole day I need to rush to school, come back home and then back to school for my presentation. So for today basically I need to rush up and down.

First I need to reach school at 9.30. I woke up slightly later cause I fell asleep after the rang. But I still manage to go out on time. Bad things came, this guy when alighting the bus, do not know what the heck and how, he step on my slipper! Then my slipper snap, the centre part came out, so its spoilt and I am rushing to school. He did ask if I am ok, and he wanted to fix it for me, but how, I am in a rush. So I said “nevermind”, I fixed it myself. Then after to the platform, I got very angry.

My slipper cost me $20 and because I on my mp3 quite loud and holding a comic in my hand I just faster fix and gone off, never ask for compensation! So stupid! (hey that guy, I guess I remember your face ok, better stay further away from me if u see me again!) . Then at woodlands, I walk to school, then I called my mom and complaint to her, because on the way of walking, it kept on coming out.

Managed to fix it after reaching the school. But was late for the meeting about 10 minutes. The meeting lasted for 1 hr and 20 minutes, first time it last for so long. After that I rush home. And guess what, when I am under my block. One of my 9th storey malay neighbour passed away and the coffin was placed at the letterbox there, I would passby there. I was so scare. Reach home, prepare and rest.

To school for presentation, I reach so early, my presentation was suppose to be at 3.40 and reach 20 minutes earlier but I reach at 3. so I call Elaine lao po cause im scare and then I went to library recall my stuff, then I go into the hall. My booth changed and I did not saw the notice until my friend came over to take a look, went to my booth and wait for the previous girl to finish, she started late and then end at 3.50, so mine was dragged back. I was the last batch and I am the last one to present finish, gosh. But overall the presentation I guess was good.

JuSt Me~
11:27 PM

* Sunday, September 23, 2007 *

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Wednesday:
Went back to school for FYP, stress coming up because there is so much things to be done. and worst of all, the system changed final presentation will have 6 teachers questioning, they will ask 3 members to go out and you alone have to stay in to answer questions. OH MY.

Thursday:
Last day of first week, lesson was fine, but realize that this class will be the most competitive among the 3.

Friday:
Celebrating mid-autumn festival with lao pos except jess cause she have to work. Around 4 I met fang to go to AMK hub, bought a pencil case cause last week I realize I have no pencil case and my stuff are lying all around. Worst of all, I cannot remember what pencil case I used in secondary school. After shopping, we went to the comic shop, we actually can stay there for more than an hour. I lend 11 books home to read, to be returned 2 weeks later. We rush back to meet Elaine lao po.

Dinner at LJS and did some fast shopping. We left and to teck whye to buy sparkles. Then later go sun shine place buy lantern. So funny dunno y travel to teck whye. I tink cause we are afraid my house here dun have. Went to mega playground and wait for JJJJ to come. We went to the basketball court to play. Asked jun hong to come down and pass us his lantern and ended up he stay with us and see us play and take pic for us. Went home around 12. Happy!

Upon reaching home, I saw the lights in the house on and no one using in addition, the house is in a mess and I got really pissed. I was so sticky so there is a bit of temper, but when I go into the kitchen, I see the pot of soup there, the chrysanthemum tea pot also there and worst of all bowls that was used was just left on the table tip, my anger came! I just wash all and kept to quite, but my heart is cursing and swearing.

I really don’t understand people who are so reliant on their boyfriend. Once they are quarreling or broke up. They just spend the day like time is all theirs, time is plentiful, life is meaningless, rotting their life off and lazy. LOOK, there are more important things on earth that you can do, go out there and see how many people are fighting with the time, how I wish I have more. If you think that you are most pitiful that you are out of love, please this is the least pitiful out of all. Stop clinging on the past, look forward there are more things awaiting, dun stick on the past then realize you have miss out a lot.

The guy would be so happy that this stupid girl that used to be his is no longer his, and that he finally get rid of a stupid girlfriend because this girlfriend only know how to rely on people and cling onto the past.

(PHEW, im done!)

Then today went out with lao pos without fang, hais always missing people. The time spent was fun. Then at night went to Jessica’s ah ma house there for an event. Ivan and Jeremy from her work place join her. We tried to chat but the atmosphere was so bad. later we are being con to join. Haha. Then we ate dinner, and went to see lion dance.

The lion dance’s lion was throwing orange, and trick the kids to take, and kids started hitting it. Then at certain point of time, they really throw the orange out. Jess mom go and snatch, then later they throw, I was not standing right in front, and the orange just came in between my foot, oh my I did not know what to do, I almost take up my feet and kick it. But I too it up, and jess told me I can have it, I was so scare, but she told me is for good luck, so I took it. Then I so scare that I sms my mom and ask. Cause when I am young, my mom said never to take things from stranger and from the floor. HAHA.

Reach home around 10.30. tired. I have lots of things that are yet to complete. DIE

JuSt Me~
10:58 PM

* Tuesday, September 18, 2007 *

CLose iT b4 words flood u

Long update coming, not interested can just leave cause I guess it will be boring. HAHA.

Friday finally get to meet lao pos J2EYS for dinner at rajah inn. Nice I skip lunch and I go there really eat, but the bad part was, before I go for shower to prepare to go out, I had a very bad abdomen pain. It was so bad that I am rolling on my mom bed. Later I meet jess at alighting and fang on train and Elaine at JE.

Reach there we order food and eat and eat, fun and nice food, on the way home, we were loud on MRT and there is this girl look at us. After that we alight at CCK and went to mac to chat a bit and then went home.

The weekends I am rushing my PP poster and till now I had sort of completed. Monday school reopens, I went to bed early and yet I could not go to sleep until 1.

Monday was a complete new class, well some of the classmate I know. The class is small and the teacher put in a lot of hard work and I like the class. But too bad, we had to shift class everyday.

Today was same class with sherry, the girl with we had some misunderstanding. Went into class and I was 6th to reach, she was already there, but I sat in another table and guess what, we were allocated same team with her, but luckily we still can work, I guess perhaps things were not as bad as I taught it would be.

Tomorrow FYP meeting start at 2.30, I met the team at 1.30 to brief through everything before meeting the teacher. I will be presenting the PP poster on 26 September, wish me luck ok, I really need to pass this individual project.

Friday hopefully can play with candles, since young moon cake festival is always the festival I look forward to, this is the time where I would play with candles and sweat a lot. Even younger, my aunt will bring me downstairs and buy lantern. I still remember I had a lantern which is a princess, me and my sister have the similar one, so my mom stick our name at the bottom. As I get older, i do not play with all this, it changes to even budget de paper lantern, once at the seaside mine even got burn. Everyone laughed at me.

Last thing to inform. My cousin will be having her wedding dinner on coming December. Guess what, her wedding stated that even lady had to come in gown and man wear suit. Oh my, look at me, look at my body how to wear a gown. Well….

JuSt Me~
11:20 PM

* Wednesday, September 12, 2007 *

2.04 am

Wow look at the time now, 1.41 am. It’s really late and I do not have the mood to sleep, perhaps because of the holiday period I had been sleeping late and I cannot get into deep sleep, one noise will just wake me up.

Monday I got my class roster, I only have to school on Monday, Tuesday and Thursday. As for Wednesday as usual at most I have to go back till 12pm. There is so much time for me next semester. I have to work or do something useful and not waste my time off. Saying about my class roster, I happen to be same class for one module with this girl which 5 girls have conflict with. I hope to view it in a way that it is not that I am suay to be being placed in the same class as her but in a way that she is sent to test my patience and hopefully things turn out good and not as bad.

Also on Monday, I went back for the regular dental check-up, my doctor say that I had been maintaining my teeth well but just that I got the very wrong way of taking care of my gums. I even got a kind of gum disease. On the spot, she refers me to another doctor which would clean and polish my teeth. I expected to bleed a lot but I never thought that it would be so pain, I even weep. The moment I open my eyes, inside is all filled with water and the blood never seems to stop. By the time I get to see the mirror, my gums are all reddish. PAIN. I really advice people who had not seen a dentist faster go for one, if not the pain will accumulate and it gets real bad.

4 days before school reopen and I had not complete my stuff that I am suppose to do during this holiday, I am really a good talker but my body just get rusty and not move. I better finish that poster by today.

Hmm look at the sky, going to rain soon, the wind are howling. Will I get a good sleep tonight? Please I really need some rest before I break down. Friday hopefully will get to meet all lao po and we can have a nice chat and a nice dinner.

During my free time, I always imagine everyone of them getting married and really felt happy for them, well as for me, im lost, cause I cannot even know what is the next step.

JuSt Me~
2:04 AM

* Saturday, September 8, 2007 *

337 words post

Ahhhchooo, is not that I am sick, but is this blog very long never update and it got dusty. HAHA. I got a lot of things to write about but also like not a long of things to blog about (blurred).

Last weekend watched hairspray with jess, Elaine, JJJJ(ying jia) and of course me! nice show. We are late for the movie so we ran from one end of Vivo to another end of it. If I happen to knock onto anyone, I am really very sorry about that >.< . After the show, ate Ben and Jerry for lunch, me and JJJJ share one Big ice cream(cannot remember the name), after that we walk up and down of a part of Vivo because we simply don't know where to go. After that we bought a cake for JJJJ dad and went off.

On bus 188, everyone seems to fell asleep, and after we alight JJJJ went to meet family to eat dinner, so the rest pack food and come to my house. Because of the full-load of ice cream and perhaps the shakiness of the bus, after I woke up, my stomach was pain like as if it had burst and I was concluded having gastric pain. At my house we slack a bit then over to JJJJ house.

Basically I am having my holiday so I am slacking my day off everyday. Wake up, play NDS, surf website, MSN, watch TV, sometimes cook dinner for family. Just waiting for the day to pass. BORING.

Got back my results on Wednesday, to me I feel that it was ok, don't have a too high expectation if not I will just stress myself.

Today went out with Elaine, JJJJ and fang. Shopped from orchard to bugis and to bukit panjang plaza, now my body is aching all over. I spent too much today. Heels, necklace, pimples/ black head extractor and a watch for my brother.

Friday J2EYS can finally get together after so long. I’ll be waiting.

JuSt Me~
11:42 PM

* Saturday, September 1, 2007 *

TWSS trip

It' s the eve of teachers' day and also the last day of august. Went back to TWSS with Elaine and it brought back tons of memory. Some good memory well it comes with bad ones too.

The stairs that we used to walk to canteen, the usual place we sat in canteen, the art room that I spend most of my time drawing, the long walk way that I dread to walk every weekdays at 6.55 am. The walls that I used to touch, the railing that I used to hold, the parade square which sun used to shine at one side of my face, the gallery which I used to sit at, the hall that I used to look at had all became memories of mine. (Pls let the pictures in your memory start flashing)

The school is old, the school started to crack everywhere. Maybe one day it will be torn down just like bukit panjang secondary. The old teck whye will soon be gone, although it look scary, but I still like the school with all the old trees and squirrel jumping about and morning birds trying to stop all the naggings.

Saw some teacher, some were still as strict as before which I felt stress when she started to scold student, some were friendly we can talk all around. Mdm Sharena baby girl, Farah is so cute.

How many times had I told myself to forget about it? And how many times I'm faced with failure of doing so. Can someone feed me amnesia pill, I want to get rid this part of my memory.

JuSt Me~
12:28 AM