look at this..i felt sad and cried when watching, hope you cherish the pet that you have.

Ella說：「我何其幸運有薔薔這樣這麼愛我的寵物，雖然牠現在到天上當小天使了，但我相信牠會保佑所有愛牠的人，牠也會希望我將對牠的愛，分送給所有需要幫助的動物們。」

I guess we must not only cherish pet but also the people around us.

JuSt Me~
12:57 AM

Had been looking at horoscope this few days because I am too free too lazy to do work. I am not compatible with Leo guys, but it turn out to be compatible with Libra, the horoscope which I sort of dislike most.

Let me see what I had done this few days. Sunday at grandpa house I was a great helper to my aunt because I help to them prepare some prayers stuff. Monday I did some house work and then went out to meet Elaine and Jess lao po for lunch. After lunch was our usual activity: roaming around lot one thinking where to go. After that I bought a comic and we went to mac and slack, jess is reading the book, Elaine and I was planning the activities for coming Saturday the gathering of j2eys. That night I finish reading the comic.

Today I basically did nothing. When I wake up I just play DS all day long because I wanted to complete the cake mania I am addicted to it. But in the morning I did something, I went to find for job using the newspaper. Out of 2 job, one was quite attractive, it is a clinic at redhill. Short hours, but the pay end up also little. I need to go down and fill in the form, I am so confused to take up the job or not. Im scared because need to commit around 6 months.

Tomorrow there is a lot of stuff to be done. First morning I need to go back school for fyp meeting after that I need to go Nokia to fix my HP. In the evening have to decide to go fill in the job form or not.

So much things coming up, Genting trip, Malaysia trip, cousin marriage and then December they want to go gold coast, I want to go too, but $$..

JuSt Me~
11:41 PM

Check this out...derrick de blog...omg...his 9 yrs old voice so cute, I guess he shld be a lovable boy ...http://derrickhoh.livejournal.com/ add this to ur favourite ok~

JuSt Me~
9:26 PM

I received a e-mail from my friends. Subject "Horoscope, very true!!!", I decided to open up and take a look, I had seen this before, seems to be quite true because every horoscope is divided into man and woman. Taurus woman:


A slim moderately tall woman (look at me, I guess you are wrong). Taurus woman is funny and a jolly person (ok). Square facial bone structure, high cheek bone (Nope, i got round face) . Her round big eyes sparkle with wit and curiosity. You will not see many round faces Taurus women, and mainly she will have a strong jaw line. She is a constantly change person. If she up sets, she will not show it and will keep it to herself for a long time, and will remember them so well. If she gets really mad at you, you will suddenly become a totally and completely stranger to her. (Well, it shouldn't be stated in this way, should say that we have good memory~)


She is a patient person, but always need new excitement(true, hey i need new excitement). She hates long talk meeting, long and endless conversation. She can be in love with you today, and one day she could act as if she has never loved you before (not so true). She has patient with what she wants to do and will never give up until she gets there (Well, i give up sometimes will give up) . She will be very persistent in what she is doing till she has reasons for stopping her project, then she will quit.

Money for Taurus woman is not the most important factor in life (NO~ to me money is impt). She thinks of money as an instrument for assuring of a good living. She has more satisfaction in achieving her goals more than satisfaction in fine cloths and luxuries. If you like a woman who always thinks of love and romance, then you are dating the wrong girl (Hello, i love romance ok~). You can not tell her to stay at home, she likes to work and preferred not work at home (I want to be "huang lian po" how can i dun like to work at home?).

She loves animals and likes to surround by animals (True). Love is in her head, but Freedom is in her soul. She has her own idea about love and afraid to show her true feeling for fear of rejection (true, dun reject me ok). She is not the type to talk about love, but she sure has a strange way to show it. She is not good in showing when she is in love, but if she loves you she will be honest to you than any other women.

She will be honest to her love one, but at the same time seems distant. You will have a good relationship with her, if you allow her freedom (erm, I prefer leo guys who is possessive that means freedom is not that impt la). Do not force her to be with you in a poker game which she hates, but let she goes out swinging with her friends if she wants to. She will be different than other girls, and she thinks different is one of her unique quality. She is a public figure but belongs to no one.She will not stay with you, if she thinks you are not sincere. She likes you to have personality, but better not to compete with her. Loves her, but not too much for she afraid it will limiting her freedom. (Weird paragraph, ALL WRONG! haha)

She always stand out of the crowd for something she dares to do. You could see her dress like a poor farmer dinning in the fancy restaurant, or dress like a nun in an a cocktail dress party. If you are a politician who are looking for a wife, she will make a good one because she is cleverly smart and she could get along socially with any type of crowds. (the dressing part is right, but the smart and get along with crowds...hmm...)

She is not a jealous type because she has to know you thoroughly before accepting you in her life (I am a jealous type at times). She has more curiosity in life than wondering if right now you are flirting with someone else. If you keep a distant from her, or go away for a few days, she will miss you more (a bit true). Even when she is dating you, she also able to fond of someone else, if you do not have something she is looking for. She will never disappoint you or hide behind your back to make you loose face (LOLS, i did not know abt this) but she is the type who just going to tell you to your face that " We're better off breaking up".

She always remember her first love (HMM..pending). Taurus woman holds the best record for divorce for she does not care about how people think of her, but every things should be done for "Happiness".

She has lots of friends and sure of herself (i did not have lots of friends la), so you will hardly see she delays any of her thoughts before her action. If she think of something, she will go ahead and does it. She has many men wanting her for her constant changes is the challenge (NO, no men). She can be cute and funny, but suddenly cool and tough (Erm..). She has her own style of dressing up, so you could see her dress like an old mate today, and tomorrow she may dress like she comes from Mars.(HAHA, true) She will have that interesting hair, dress and a look unique from anyone else. She likes to learn about your dreams and your thought. She has fun teasing you and making jokes. If she did something wrong, she won't hide it from you, but do not ask when she is not in the mood to talk about it. She hates to owe people money and take promise seriously (Yes.) . If you promise to pay her back, you'd better paid up. (It's ok AT TIMES not to pay la)


If you want to make it with Taurus woman, then do not be jealous or possessive, do not be narrow minded, do not criticize about nonsense or small and insignificant matters. Try to likes her friends and let she has her privacy, then she can be very sweet to you.


JuSt Me~
9:50 AM

Yes is the last day of class and I love this class, although the bond is not very good but we can communicate with each other. Did not manage to ask for a treat from this teacher because he very law by law, we treat him he also dun wan giving the reason that he cannot accept offers because he is a civil servant and it is like a bribe if he does that.

Lesson is light and fun. After lesson I slack a bit in class and went to Bugis to meet jia jia lao po. On the train I play my NDS until I almost forget to get down at city hall. Haha clumsy jolyn after all. After I saw her, we are fast, she eats then we walk, then she got 2 jeans for her coming attachment within the first hour. As for me, I bought a ring then we went for dinner.

After dinner we went to this fashion and I bought a shirt, this shirt made me and jjjj very exhausted because it is a funny shirt, but in the end I bought it. Usual price 22, and got discount so is 17.60 I think. I actually want to get another shirt from another shop de but I think no more le.

When we were waiting for bus, it started to rain and pour, the lighting were in purple colour and made us so scared, worst still both of us are scare of thunder and lighting, everyone must be thinking that we are very weird right jjjj. We chat a lot on the bus, I guess I enjoy going out with my lao po even is individually.



I believe that when the god gave us something good, they will in return take something from us that we cherish.


He gave me friend (lao pos) that I thought I would never had, but in return, he took my family warmth away.

He gave me nice hair and big eyes; in return he gave me bad figure.

He gave me no problems about financial at home but gave me bad-temper.

He gave me brain and wisdom but it came quite late.

He gave me good choices but in return im confused

There is much more to be mentioned. . And we as human is always not satisfied. I think he also had a hard time deciding what to give and what to take.





My NDS lite


The cover i bought
With the white protection cover
The ring i bought today.



JuSt Me~
11:49 PM

The last week of lesson so my classmate, bel was planning to “sai ko” all the 4 facilitator that we have to treat us. Friday my facilitator treat us to munchy donut, it was nice. Then come Monday, the facilitator is a assistant director of SEG so supposing he should be loaded but he is so strict that he do not want to treat us. The saddest things is that the next class faci treat them Pizza hut, sadden. HAHAHA.

Yesterday the only female teacher that we got was so reluctant to treat us. She said she only got chocolates to treat us, so she gave us time out and mars. The lesson start earlier at 1.30 and ended at 2.17. then after some talking, she decided to treat us to the pod W4 waffles. Yeah~ me and bel shared a chocolate one. Yummy~. Tomorrow we will have a nice guy faci, really much burn his pocket into a big hole. HAHAHA

I watch the new scary show “dead silence” in class with my classmate, the show is rather scary because the face s scary. Nice show, but ending..watch it yourself.

Yesterday night oh no should be today morning, my sis and I fought with a moth at 12.15 and almost till 1. No one dares to kill it (look at the month now) and my sister kept screaming. I am super scare. But in the end who ask it to fly towards my sis, she use a book and slam it landed up below the book. Flat. Until now, no one is clearing up it dead body it was left in my room.

This few days I had been following the news. The sad thing from the news is that we as a Singaporean were encouraged to work even after the age of 55. That means the retire age is older. GOSH look, if at the age of 55 we retire and start working at 20, then we will work for 35 years. Wow work for more than half of my life, im dead. They even expect us to plan our savings to the age of 85. So old, I guess Im not going to make it.

Holiday starts on Friday, I seriously need a job, Im running out of money.

JuSt Me~
12:56 PM

FYP presentation was a pile of rubbish from us, I guess until now, no point groaning over spilled milk, I guess I have to get myself up and get my team working harder for the next half for the project.

Im planning the meeting of the team during holiday, its so scary when now is mid August and I am looking at mid of September. I am planning a month ahead how fast time past, we are almost 3/ 4 of the 2007 and approaching 2008 in no time.

Sometimes I really ponder why am I single, why I just could not get someone to be with or and there for me. The fireworks today was a disappointment because of the last episode show at 7pm and the ending is rubbish cause there is second part in December.

As for tomorrow, others have to study for their exam and I am the only one free that means either I don’t watch it or I go alone. I did not catch any fireworks this year, I really want one. How nice would it be if someone were to do it just opposite my block.

3 days left to school end for this semester, I urgently need to find a job to avoid everything that is coming into my life.









不想一直对着空中伸着手，期待谁来牵着我往前走。我会握紧我的拳头，努力的往前冲。

我最不需要的就是梦想，最没兴趣的就是恋爱，我不会让自己有希望落空的机会，应为没有期望，就不会有失望。

有一个傻女孩在等一个笨男孩。。。





How weird humans can get, only tends to remember how sad they can be and not how happy they are. Sad songs start to play when they are sad, Popping loud music playing when they are happy, so what song to play when we are happy that can satisfy out needs?

Im a greedy human, I am not a human that does not greed. When I have the things I want, I want more and more, nothing will satisfy my appetite.


I am a bad tempered. I got split personality. I am just not what you think I am. Who is that I see in the mirror?

Class photo on 16/8





JuSt Me~
11:05 PM

My confidence level has been dropping, my energy level had been depreciating. Somebody must have stolen my confidence, please give me back, I urgently need it for tomorrow FYP presentation.

Im at the verge of breaking down, my dark rings can compete with the panda in zoo, the amount of stress is as heavy as the globe.

JuSt Me~
9:01 AM

A sudden feel that I am deprive from my dream. After much consideration, I decided to go to university because my lao po encourage to do so and I thought my family is financially capable. BUT just now, I think that is dream will forever stay as a dream.

Just now, my dad went into the room and tell my sis to pay her own school fees, her school fees is expensive because is private school, it goes up to 7000 per semester. I am thinking my dad must be kidding on her because I always did some calculation that his money is sufficient to spend on us, however my sis thinks it is possible that he cannot afford because sometimes she see my dad bank transfer money. GOSH, that means I cannot go university I have to come out and work to live on my own. No more university say bye to NUS. I just check, I think it will cost 6 thousand odd per year. OMG

Well, have to see what will happen in the coming months, no one knows what will happen.

JuSt Me~
10:25 PM

First of all, a happy belated happy 42nd birthday to Singapore. On 9/8 met Elaine, jia and fang lao pos. We went to kbox which in total cost us only 9.10, rather cheap as compared to other days. Jess lao po cannot make it because she went hiking with her family. But she managed to meet us at around 8 at jia house. We play and chat at JJJJ(jia jia jie jie or jie jie jia jia) house.

This few weeks had been rather stressed, other than the days met up with JEYS. I had terrible nightmares for almost 2 weeks which I think is caused by the stress. Sometimes, I will be awaken by the terrible nightmare in the middle of the night or in the dawn. When I woke up either the dream just get out of my mind or it will be stuck in my brain. During the daytime, I will keep pondering about the dream that I dreamt. I am so scare, so scare to sleep now, but I have no choice I need to sleep I’m tired I need rest.

FYP report was submitted yesterday and presentation will be on coming Wednesday, heard from the SIT student, their presentation was quite bad because they are being questioned down so hard by the teacher, im scared again.

Last time, I one week only happen to dream once, but now, it seems like everyday. Im worry.


Happy birthday to Adeline and jue tong.

JuSt Me~
10:46 PM

FREAKING YUCK PISSED
FUCKING YAYA PROJECT
FUCKING YUCK PUI~!



I'm damn pissed off with the things around me esp the damn FYP. Who cares right, dun you see the urgency to complete. Im here struggling to finish it because it all comes down to me and yet that ***king attitude of yours makes me so pissed off. WATEVER~

JuSt Me~
10:35 PM

31 July 2007, Tuesday
I went to Bukit Batok to buy NDS lite. That causes me to be heavily in debt and broke currently. After that I meet Elaine jia and fang for dinner. After that we went to jjjj hse.

1 august 2007, Wednesday

Met J2EYS, I also sew a cover by myself for my NDS, the cover look budget but well no choice cannot afford to spend 10 bucks to buy a cover.

For the rest of the days I cannot remember what am I doing, affected by STM virus. HAHA.

Friday my sis treats me to secret recipe cake chocolate indulgent (hopefully spelled correctly) because she owes me too much to mention, triple yummy! Yesterday my dad birthday, we went to Plaza Singapura to eat Swensens. Well, of course the food is nice so is the ice-cream. The ice cream cake is the best. We ate Mango Tango, a highly recommended cake to try thou it is quite ex. We spent a total of 90 off a bit. Well it will be shared between my sis and me. Can imagine how broke I am now.

Worst still, I am going to the salon now to trim my hair all thanks to the long fringe and hot weather. Completed studying my tomorrow test, hopefully will get a grade A so can put my GPA up a bit.

Confusion of life is terrible. University versus working life, which would you prefer?
Studying makes me mad, playing too much makes me mad too.



JuSt Me~
2:17 PM